Just thinking

I wish I could live like I did when I was a kid again. When I was a kid I would do things for fun just because. I remember I used to run out to the trail behind my house just to watch airplanes land over me. I would ride my bike with my friend and we would wrestle each other in a mud puddle, that was fun. I remember doing lots of stuff like that just because. I used to love climbing trees. I just don't seem to live like that anymore. I'm not happy with the way that I think about a lot of things right now. My thoughts have been giving me some serious trouble lately. It bothers me a lot, and I wish things could be different. I don't want to explain it here, I just want my life to be a life again, doing things just because they need to be done. I used to be an explorer! I'm not sure where all of that went in me I guess I just don't think that way anymore. I hope things can change and get better in my life so I can learn to live and be a real person, I think that would be cool. I was officially transformed into a Man of God today!! I'm a Warrior for Jesus. I think that's the coolest way to be. The Bible says that God thinks of things that are not as if they were, so I like the fact that God calls me His child even when I don't have any strength to live like one. I mean, Lewis and Clark, those were real people, right? They were pretty cool. I'd like to do the Juneau thing and go camping with some cool people again, I think that would be fun, cause I do like the ocean, and the beach, and campfires, ooh well, we'll see what comes along... I think God can give me little things like that to make life fun and exciting I just have to ride my bike to the glacier or downtown more often. Whatever happens I know it's going to be awesome because God is awesome and I've laid down my life and put it in His hands now.